It just feels like yesterday when I wished to earn a specific award within my work industry and noticed how the universe listened to my smallest wish & conspired to make it my life’s reality after 3 years. It was not only a proud moment for my mom but a fulfilment of her faith in her current god. Yes, “Current God”.
My mother is a religious woman. She worships her divine photo-frames and sand sculpture 2-3 hrs every day. During festival season her love for them gets overwhelming that she starves the whole family till death until her divine frames are fed! Yeah, her passion can compete with the love of Meera for Krishna. With my blurred memory, I remember her having Ram & Sita, Krishna, Lakshmi, Saraswati, Ganesha and infinity pics of god fixed on a small table. She made sure, my bother & I also love them as much as she did. Being a confused kid, while performing the rituals I look at all of them and then thought about how to worship them? Ram Ji ko pehle namaste kia toh Krishna bhagwan ko bura toh nahi lagega? (If I worship Ram before Krishna, will Krishna get offended?). I mean how to decide whom to worship first? Thanks to neighbours aunties and their farthest cousin's maid success story with a specific god, made my confusion easier. I started worshipping that particular god first and rest later. If I am facing trouble on a Saturday, I used to start chanting “Jai Shani Dev”, If Tuesdays are going bad then I turn towards Hanuman Ji. Or if I knew, I am not going to score well in final exams then March’s Navaratri is where I spent all my pocket money on Durga Maa ka diya & parshaad.
My faith in the almighty was switching according to my needs and desires. However, it didn’t take me much time to realise this pattern and the charge of this unfaithfulness behaviour was taken care off. I also realised that this pattern was not only followed by me, but it was passed on to me by my family seniors and to them from their surrounding and to them from their surroundings. Basically, a vicious circle. Thanks to some meditation sessions and a lot of reading on culture & religion, I moved to spirituality and with some more self-introspection with time I realised how we as a human are ready to shift our faith on that supreme power which we only believe is the provider of everything. How we start believing that watering a specific plant on a Sunday morning and milking a stone will wash our sins and make the magic work in our favour. How we not being faithful towards our own faith and expect a favourable return. Well being a young and naïve in this area I don’t know if this system right or wrong, but I do understand that people’s faith on god is now same as a person's faith on another person in time of Kalyug
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